The Bloody Doors Off

This should be the final month of my bankruptcy. I haven’t heard officially yet, one way or the other.

It’s driving me mental Like being in purgatory; you can see your version of Heaven just off on the horizon, but you can also smell the sulfur wafting behind you. And you don’t want to turn around, even for an instant, because Azazel might be reaching out with a clawed fist.

I’m trying to stay positive, yet am acting pragmatically. My Trustee said back in May that I didn’t have to record my expenses this month, but I’m doing it anyway. 2014 started out total shit, but the spring’s been good to me. Summer could be the same. But I’m still waiting for shoes to drop. I even had a moment today that reminded me of the slide I was starting this time last year. I don’t want to go there again.

Please.

I’m having a moment. Several, actually.

And I can’t explain why. I know why, I just can’t talk about it. It won’t come out.

Didn’t get the new contract because (rightfully) they don’t want to wait 7 weeks for me to be free. All well and good, I’d like to focus on the contract (and side work) I have now. And what if they wanted to extend the contract?

Note to self: don’t shave your head late at night. It never ends well.

Wait for Godzilla to come out on DVD. And then wait until it comes out on television. You’re not missing anything.

Just watched The Lego Movie. Loved it. For the first hour or so I felt like a kid and that was in big part due to the writing. But it wasn’t until the big reveal that I realized why.

Spoiler alert.

(more…)

…of the Age of Aquarius.

Too bad I’m a Libra.

And that sums up my day.

I don’t know why I bother setting my alarm, I’m never asleep long enough for it to go off in the morning.

Suelte mi corazón
Baby déjame ser
Porque no te importa
Dejadme
Libérame

Suelte mi corazón
Bebé me dejó ir
Suelte mi corazón
Porque tú no me amas no más
Cada vez que te llamo por teléfono
Algunos tío me dice que usted no está en casa
Suelte mi corazón
Libérame

Suelte mi corazón
Baby déjame ser
Suelte mi corazón
Porque no te preocupas por mí
Me tienes sembraste como un caso suave
Pero deja que mi amor se desperdicie
Suelte mi corazón
Libérame

Estoy bajo tu hechizo
Al igual que un hombre en un bebé trance
Oh, pero sin duda usted estará al tanto
Que no tienen ninguna oportunidad
Suelte mi corazón
Déjame que me vaya a mi manera
Suelte mi corazón
Tú estás en mí día y noche
¿Por qué me dejan dos una vida de miseria
Cuando no se preocupan por los granos para mí
Suelte mi corazón oh, por favor
Libérame
Bien
Estoy bajo tu hechizo
Al igual que un hombre en trance oh nena
Pero sin duda usted estará al tanto
Que no tienen ninguna oportunidad
Por favor desencadenar mi corazón
Déjame ir a mi manera
Suelte mi corazón
Usted está en mi noche y día
¿Por qué me deje a una vida de miseria
Cuando no se preocupan por los granos para mí
Suelte mi corazón
Por favor, me puso en libertad
Oh me puso en libertad
Oh mujer ¿por qué no hacerlo para mí
No te importa
¿No quieres dejarme ir
Que tú no me amas no más
Al igual que un hombre en trance
déjame ir
Estoy bajo tu hechizo
Al igual que un hombre en trance
Y sin duda usted estará al tanto
Que no tienen ninguna oportunidad sin
¡Ay
No te importa
Por favor, me puso en libertad

Everything is counter-intuitive. Reversed polarity. Circling counter-clockwise.

Whatever the fuck it is.

Keep going.

I got contacted today about another 1-year contract. Of course I told them that I was on contract until the end of July.

They said:

Send me your updated resume, I’ll see what I can do.”

After looking at the email for the fifth time, I noticed that one aspect that is ‘mandatory’, I don’t have the qualification for.

But I said:

Who the fuck cares?”

And so tonight I sent my updated resume.

Can’t win if you don’t play. Very counter-intuitive of my normal thought processes.

I was right about it being a disaster movie being filmed outside my office. It’s a Sandler movie, they’re all pretty much gonna bomb.