I’ve had this window open for hours, looking for inspiration. That’s a common theme this week. I’ve been writing in the RPG. Those characters are active. Discovered last night that I’ve been writing them since 2003 (thought the first evidence of that online game has long since faded into the ether). Going through some of…

I wrote this in an RPG 9 years ago. Warning: this is EXTREMELY smutty. Not for the vanilla; definitely NSFW.

I wish I had something interesting to write about tonight. Pretty boring day: got comics, did laundry. Have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow with my GP. It’s the silence that’s toughest to handle right now. Trying to find things to do, to write about. And it doesn’t help that Christmas is next week. I don’t want…

I’ve been thinking about labels today. I’ve always been a bit of a nerd, and I’m okay with that. I like comics, sci-fi/fantasy. Being diagnosed with depression and type 2 diabetes, pretty much in the same month, was a one-two punch. It put me on short-term disability during the summer of 2007. I had to…

Today’s been a blast. Where to begin? Woke up with the alarm, stumbled into the bathroom for ablutions, took my anti-depressant and climbed back under the duvet for another 30 minutes. The cats ensured I got up with the reset. Surprisingly, it wasn’t downhill from there. It sometimes is, when I can’t get out of…

I’m wondering if I suffer from just depression, or more. Last night I learned one aunt is bi-polar. Another has depression, anxiety, social anxiety, and paranoia. This stuff is hereditary. I think back to last winter/spring when I was winding down off of the past anti-depressants, and how I’d spiral with paranoid thoughts. I thought…

How many times does the rug have to be pulled out from under me before I get the message?

So, the CO2 detector’s been going off on the main floor since just after midnight today. A few minutes ago, 5 guys from the fire department came knocking to check out my apartment. Their comment? My apartment may be illegal. The gas heater in the living room vents outside the window, and right outside the…

I am beyond exhausted. Leftover since yesterday. Coffee hasn’t helped, fresh air didn’t do me any good. I went out to get a prescription, and a larger, durable mat for the entrance. I’ve bought vitamin b12. This just doesn’t make any sense. I didn’t take a nap because of (a) the timing and (b) I…

I’m 30 minutes into The Conjuring and I had to pause. I love horror films, mostly because – while they can scare me – I know they’re not real. The mark of an excellent horror (for me) is when they get my imagination working for them. And they’ve done that already. It’s a 2 hour…