Every once in a while, you need to spend the day in your pajamas. Even when the client sends you work. Even when you need to step out and check the mail (nothing but flyers). Or heating dinner. Not an affect of depression. (Though I’ve been there in the past.) Not out of laziness. (I…

There’s one person left in the apartment directly above me. He moves out this weekend. Dear god, if I could move time. Since 4pm, he’s been singing. It’s loud enough to be annoying, but not enough to be bitchy about. Well, I suppose this is me bitching. Over 6 hours. WTF? Back in July, one…

Interesting talk with my psychiatrist today. Discussed the gaping hole (okay I didn’t call it that) that I feel during the holidays. I do feel like there’s something missing. He reminded me that, with my last job, I complained that I couldn’t get the week of Christmas and New Year’s off because the other multimedia…

Over-cooked the pork roast. Now that’s out of the way… Today sucked. Too much time on my hands, no motivation to write or go for a walk. Goddamn but I’m not happy. I worry that it’s this place. I’m half underground. I’ve got windows but a grey day like today, there’s no sunlight coming in…

Sadly I’m not referring to the Crash Test Dummies song (which is okay, but I never really took to). No, this is more of a gut feeling that comes on when things are too quiet, when my hands are too idle, etc. I got up at 9:00am, and by 10:30 I was bored to tears.…

I’m a lapsed Catholic. I was baptized and took communion, even going to Catholic school on Saturdays (only this year did I learn my mother only agreed to this because it was either going on Saturdays, or Catholic School proper). Given my falling out, I think I dodged a bullet. I’m far too liberal in…

Saturday didn’t go as expected. In some ways it was better. I wrote a very trippy scene with my friend Kate, a tale of two friends who had a conversation in dreams that spanned lives lived, lives yet to be experienced, and alternate planes of existence. It reminded me of what we as a writing…

I was talking to a friend today who is going through their own issues. And as much as I want to help them, all I can really offer is an ear to listen. At one point I was going to say “you only get out of life what you put in”, but didn’t. Because it…

I get why, on the 6th floor of H-Wing, they played music videos when everyone woke up. It’s the least offensive noise at first light. It’s not the news, which can anger or depress you. Nor is it a couple of “hosts” making ‘witty banter’ and talking with C-list celebrities. But Justin Bieber singing “Santa…

It’s been a very grey day, in every sense. Despite the warm weather (we hit 15C around noon), I couldn’t motivate myself to go outside for a walk. And I wanted to. Mentally. In my head, I kept thinking, despite the lack of sun, that it would be a lovely time to take a walkabout.…