My cats are insane. I think they’re purposefully testing my limits. Mels is the worst. She’s all ‘tude. She’ll get up on the kitchen counter, and even after a full blast of water to the face, she’ll stare at me with a look that says, “that all you got?”

I believe: 2013 has been the worst year of my life 2014 is unknowable My friends and family truly care for and love me In a higher power (but not religion) I’m capable of so much more   I hope: I have the strength to get through 2014 Things will get better I’ll find a…

Just got an email from the landlord. He was in to fix the heating in the roommate’s bedroom and noticed the electric heater. He asked me not to use it, because it increases the hydro (which is included in the rent). There’s no such provision in the lease, and I get why they’d like to…

A day past Christmas, and I can look back on it with some fondness. I wasn’t in the best of moods leading into the day. And it took a while to get into the spirit of things, but once at Wayne and Donna’s, things took an upswing. There was me, Kevin, Wayne, Donna, my nephew…

Too tired from turkey and Doctor Who. The day started off kinda blech but ended on a nice note. Will write more tomorrow.

Right now, in this moment. Fuck Christmas. This outlook may change any moment. But in this moment. I’m tired. Angry. Sad. Frustrated. Livid. Oblivious. Dangerous. I want to cry. Sleep. Throw things. Shut off. It’s chemical; I know that. The highs and lows this month, as the holidays approached, have been more pronounced. The holidays…

So the past 36 hours has been hell on this city, and for 24 of them, it’s preyed on my psyche. You ever watch post-apocalyptic thrillers and wonder how you’d do in that scenario? I’d crumple. Too reliant on electronics for one. I did have a huge-ass lantern I bought back in the summer, and…

I’ve been trying a little aversion therapy the past couple of days: the rubber band snap on the wrist. If my brain goes dark, if I feel like crap, I snap the band hard to snap me out of it. It’s still early days, not entirely effective yet. It was a decent afternoon. Conversation with…

Being from German and English descent, I like to joke that I’m constantly at war with myself. And when we’re faced with certain choices, there are at least two voices we listen to when making a decision. The one that tells us to be good, follow the proper path; and the other, that says give…

On my way home from a friend’s Christmas gathering. I’m on the streetcar at Broadview and Gerrard. I get the distinct feeling that, if I look south around the corner, I’m going to see that there’s no power. That there’s a blackout. Even east, across the street. I expect it, but it’s not there. Then…