That my best now, was my worst then.

I’ve been staring at this screen for hours, and nothing. On days like these, I usually recap my day. It keeps alive the promise I made to myself to blog/journal daily. I’ve been doing so for just over two months now, and there are days the words just flow from my fingertips. Today. The cursor…

AKA why I am as I am. Do you really want to continue reading? Then click the ‘more’…

I have one. Be kinder to myself. Here’s hoping for a better 2014.  

Okay, it’s a little cold. I wouldn’t call it frightful. And I’m bound and determined to go out in an hour to enjoy the new year. So, here’s to a good 2014 for everyone.

Not surprisingly, I have an issue with this phrasing today. Not the sentiment behind it, but the wording. Happy. Yes, I’d like to be happy. More than anything right now, I’d like to carve out the piece of my brain that refuses to behave in this manner and just be ‘happy’. But I know it’s…

It’s not unusual to experience ups and downs. But in the space of hours? My brother Kevin came over. Plan was for coffee, head out for a snack and catch a movie. But I couldn’t. It was too overwhelming today. He understood, and I appreciated that. But I still felt disappointed in myself. And there’s…

Apparently this is my 100th blog post, and I should be celebrating. Yeah right. This is definitely the last post I link to Facebook for the foreseeable future. Because who wants to read this shit, anyway. I refuse to celebrate. I can’t. I’m cracking inside. Trying to remain positive has taken up all my energy.…

I would like to take a drill and insert it into my brain right now, just to relieve the pushing. I’m hoping it’s weather-related, but I felt this way in October as well.

I’ve always put too much pressure on myself. It wasn’t always a bad thing. The drive to succeed, to be better, can be a positive motivator. But now, when I need to take things easier, to accept that change will take time and I can’t make changes overnight, that kind of pressure isn’t hard to…