Thinking about relationships tonight, and how I just don’t have the fucking time to start one if I wanted to. Running the business alongside working this contract? I barely have any time for myself right now. And as attractive as a new relationship is, especially the new relationship energy that you feed off of (and…

On my head. And there’s a brick inside. So the agency did overpay me. Fine. I can arrange to pay it back. In installments. Given they’ve fucked with me for 3 months. Only no. They want to take it out of my current invoice instead. Um. That’s illegal, is it not? I’ve scanned through the…

I was once told, and it still amazes me to know, that the Chinese script for Crisis and Opportunity are essentially the same symbol. Can’t decide at this moment which I’m experiencing. Work is still producing, both the main contract and side work. I had a job in all weekend; barely had an hour here…

Or more accurately, crowd skirting. I haven’t been a huge fan of crowds the past year. I get nervous, antsy. A need to break away, get fresh air. It’s been more noticeable of late. Jason & Paige’s wedding reception, and then Uncle Roy’s funeral. It’s not me being anti-social, it’s becoming overwhelmed with the number…

I’ve been listening to talk radio when I get up in the morning. Couldn’t tell you why. I could just as easily get my news from the 24 hour news channels. The usual talking heads, the same take on current events. Ugh, my nose won’t stop running. Allergies are a killer this year. Last night…

So very tired tonight. Frustrating day at work, got the best of me. I felt it building, but had no stop gap. No release valve to slowly let out the pressure. Days like this beat on me pretty hard.  Sometimes I can find an out. Today I couldn’t. But I survived it. And I remind…

I had a very dark moment earlier tonight. So ridiculously hellish that I nearly laughed. But the seriousness behind this… joke. Not at all good. Let’s not have that happen again, please.

I don’t feel like myself today. I don’t feel anything.

I heard the news today, oh boy. My Uncle Roy passed earlier in the day. He’d taken a hard fall a couple of weeks ago and had been in hospital since. It scrambled his memories; he had difficulty remembering his family, if at all. He’d broken a hip. For a bit it looked like he…

What I thought was an overpayment from the agency, isn’t. I am apparently not good at math.