So tired. Happy. Tired.

Today was a real learning experience at the job. I’ve been so accustomed to working conversions, that the normal day-to-day stuff was taking several attempts to get right. It got to me, the frustration. Once or twice I just wanted to scream. That upset me even more. I need to readjust. At least it wasn’t…

Now begins the fight with Trillium. I need to send in a copy of my taxes and EI form to prove that 2013 was indeed the worst fucking year of my life and I’m paying way too much for prescription medications and why the hell is my deductible more than doubled from when I got…

I’m reminded of the moment in the book when the two leads dance their way to a middle score, exactly where they want to be. While most people would look at the bar they set as being beneath them, it was a high watermark for two damaged people looking for something good in their world.…

You know what pissed me off today, only it took until just now to figure out? That asshole Doug Ford pretty much saying that ‘alcoholism’ can be cured. That shit enables. And as someone who binged at 19-20 and had to go dry for 10 years to find control again? And surprised that he did?…

There’s something to be said for being in your 40s. Yes my body is slowly breaking down. I’ve got a problem with my right foot that’s tied to my type 2 diabetes. I don’t sleep through the night without pills and a CPAP. Can’t keep my eyes open past midnight these days. (Yes, I get…

It’s my day off, but it’s not. I’ve been on the go since 8am. Doctor’s appointment, down to the bank to get routing info (because the Agency still can’t get my banking information correct). Back home and work later in the day, in two pieces. And now I’ve just started laundry. Oh right, I also…

I don’t do well standing still, it seems. Well, I’ve always known I have a hard time relaxing. But it’s worse when there’s nothing. I was faced with that earlier today. Finally a day off, and no plans. I didn’t even need to do laundry. (I’ve been doing laundry every Sunday to fill time.) And…

They didn’t pay the invoice because of the overpayment. So I’ve got two options: fight the fuckin’ thing tooth and nail (and burn the bridge with the agency as a result), or just let it go. Either way, I get screwed over. There’s no way to win. I don’t know if I even wanna play…

I’ve been putting in serious hours this week, just not only at the contract job. One of my clients is ramping up a big job and I’m happy to have the work. Question is: when am I gonna sleep? I have a feeling I’m gonna have to fight for my invoice to be paid this…