The Bloody Doors Off

I’m feeling very pessimistic tonight.

What with a Covid resurgence, new restrictions being placed, lockdowns in other provinces, it’s 2020 all over again. We’ve lived this nightmare for far too long, but because there are (tens of? hundreds?) thousands of Covidiots who didn’t get the vaccine, actively refused to wear masks and made things generally fucking hellish on the rest of us, we get to suffer another winter.

We are supposed to be taking a four-day trip to Orillia after Christmas for a much needed break, but I can’t truly accept it is happening until we are actually packed up in the car and have left the parking garage. I want to believe, but I can’t allow myself to get my hopes up.

So many plans this week have been unfulfilled because of the rapidly spreading Omicron variant.

Tonight, I looked out our north-facing windows (into the parking lot that is to become yet more condominiums here in the Distillery) and saw the dark outline of a second crane in mid-assembly. It looked like a fucking alien craft had landed outside our building and I swear to gods, I had a moment where I thought “Fuck yeah, that about tracks. Who had alien invasion on the 2021 bingo cards?”

We are. All. Run down.

Plans for Coltrane’s birthday have flown out the window. You can hear the resignation in his voice. Another year passing, and he can’t spend it with his friends at his favourite Chinese restaurant. And I’m worried that Christmas dinner will get cancelled. Again. We barely see our families at it is.

And this is happening everywhere. Everyone’s got a story. Everyone is hurting.

Except maybe Randy Hillier. That asshole loves stirring the pot.

What a fucking weird time to exit a depressive episode. I feel like I’m The Omega Man, which, if you know the story blocks of the movie, isn’t too far removed from today’s reality.

Gods, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.

And an exit strategy from fucking Covid would be nice too.