The Bloody Doors Off

Is everyone enjoying my ‘day in the life’?

Trust me, I’ve only written a fraction of the shit that’s run through my brain. I found a music video of Kirsten Dunst singing “Turning Japanese”. Shot in 2015. It was. Embarrassing.

If I’d seen that during my stay in Ward H, I might’ve been convinced to stay longer.

Looking back, I’m kinda surprised they let me self-discharge after the mandatory seventy-two hour hold. I was not ready. And I wasn’t ready to admit I wasn’t ready.

There was an easier reason to have a smoke. Hell, they have scheduled outside breaks. That I would’ve gotten to take part in if I’d remained. Would I have still quit smoking, or held onto the vice to get me through an extended hospital stay.

And I don’t feel like going down the ‘alternate life lived’ path.