The Bloody Doors Off

I feel like I have whiplash. Figuratively speaking.

Was supposed to into the office today for noon, only to wake up to a voice mail saying they hadn’t heard back from the client and so, don’t bother, just go in on Monday. And oh, instead of noon your training starts at 10am.

I’m fine with all of this. But I was gearing up all week for a certain timetable and now it’s tossed over. I’d set up an appointment for the Wednesday morning, and now have to reschedule.

Ugh, okay maybe I find it harder to just ‘go with the flow’ then I’d like to admit. I was an improviser for over a decade; you’d think I was used to being thrown curve balls. I’ve lobbed a few myself.

In one way it helped that the start date got pushed back; it allowed me to put in a little over 5 hours for another client today (otherwise would’ve been working over the weekend). But I’d just submitted my invoices for the month, and so this’ll have to hold for the end of April. (Which might be better for the bankruptcy.)

I just feel like… fuck, I don’t know. Life is full of change and last-minute hiccups and I should be used to it. So why am I chaffing over this? Why is this stressing me out?