The Bloody Doors Off

I find it hard to de-stress. It balls up inside of me and takes root, and never really seems to go away. I manage it as best I can, but it’s an uphill battle. The last time I was able to relax, after A Song for Rachel was performed, I got incredibly sick. I’d willed myself to keep going, refusing to unwind, until after. And my body immediately attacks me for it.

It’s unhealthy in the long-term, I know. Hell, sometimes when I unwind, or find myself in a happy situation, the lack of stress can trigger an anxiety attack. And those ones are the most powerful. But if I don’t learn to let it go, even in small pieces, I’m going to break down again. And I’ll be right back where I started.